27th jan 2012
20.29
still smiling,thinking of him :)))
it still feels the same for me,
few months down the line...
joking about it, heart racing,sleepless nights...
just thinking of what is about to happen xxx
i wasnt sure how to feel,
thinking of how his hands would feel on mine xxx
but each day in my mind,
i want to feel we make things better for each other
and i know that in my heart,
i am lucky to have some one
who makes me feel happy even when we are apart...
counting the days for us to be together,
the waiting feels like forever...
oh,how melodaramatic i sound!!!
but yes,its agony not having Him around xxx
punishments,punishments...
phew!i thought i wont get through yesterday.. :)
but He was right we cant punish each other because
imposing it to one another,makes it us both feel hurt and unhappy..
i knew it when i read it,
it was the most hardest thing to do,not being able to hear
from You xxx
but i had a hard time admitting it...but i felt it~it felt terrible~
more than anything in this world!
xxx :)
on the way to be with Him for some reason i felt nervous?
i dont know why,but my heart seems to beat faster as usual ..
i arrived where He will be,
kept my head down and let my mobile entertain me ...
the minutes passed,ignoring everyone around..
then He was suddenly there,
those familiar eyes,that big smile..
His warm kisses...
it made me feel like, He was always there...
with me,every hour, every minute ,every second of my day xxx
then suddenly,everything and everyone fades into the background..
like no other sound is there,except the conversation we have..
His smile and his touch ...
He was tired,
theres nothing like tiredness,whisky and me haha ;)
then we slowly went to where we are spending our night...
in the middle of a busy town,
we got in...
and we cant help but laugh,our room looks like a capsule..
it was lovely like He said being inside a boat...
you dont have a choice but to stay in bed together haha!
it is a room where you can see each other all the time,
hear what we were doing even in the shower xxx
then we went out to go to the champagne bar
where we sat on our spot..
oblivious of everyone,its as if its ours xxx
then went back to our room,where no one else can see,
the way He looked at me..
the way He held me..
...laid there,where we felt each others warmth,
He was touching me..kissing me like He will never see me again..
looking at Him,smiling at me..
in that capsule..
in His eyes,i could see my reflection..
wishing the night wont end..
in our room i smile thinking,
i am with Him,
in the middle of the jungle...that is London
with the man i fell for,
i shake my head and smile..
how?
then the time arrives where we say our goodbyes...
where He will go on His way,to start the day..
i take a piece of Him with me ...
and leave a piece of my heart to take with Him
all i know i was not looking forward for the morning to rise,
on the mornings we have to say our goodbyes...
where we walk together,holding each others hands tightly xxx
but only to see His blue eyes..
for where we were,in that room,
being with Him,
..for me it was paradise xxx
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